Mumbai: Bollywood actress Manisha Koirala is not planning for a life of renunciation despite her spiritual leanings.

The 44-year-old 'Dil Se' star, who was recently spotted in a saffron attire, said it is tough to lead such a life.

"This is just to say that I have had a fortune of being in company of sadhu and sadhvi but I am no where close to being one! I'm in deep gratitude that Pilot Baba called me for mahamrityunjaya hawan... And I just happen to wear a saffron coloured clothes! Yes, my mind has been dabbling with the concept of renunciation and sanyas but that's only because I am inquisitive," Koirala posted on her Facebook page.

Koirala said she has got a new lease of life after taking part in a religious procession.

"From oneness I have learnt a lot... From the nature of our mind to how we all are conditioned by our past lives, while we were in mothers womb, our childhood, our circumstances etc...

"And to be free from such huge set of conditioning is almost impossible (almost impossible means... It's tough but doable!)... To be a sadhvi requires a lot more then mearly wearing saffron coloured clothes, so I know I am no where close to it... Though I wish, I could be one!," she wrote.

Koirala, who was last seen in Ram Gopal Varma's 'Bhoot Returns' (2012), recently battled with cancer.